I have to admit I cannot keep this up. Which I guess is an act of humility in and of itself. With everything happening in my life right now for me to try to keep up the 31 days project is just not going to work. I will have to cut it short.
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My humility lesson of the day is also my biggest relief of the day. Family is home to help with grandma. That’s a relief. Now for the humble part. They can take care of her. Quit worrying.
By the way, my family is perfectly capable. I am aware of that. I am struggling to remember that. Hence, humility. It doesn’t have to be me. Haha.
Ok this is a lousily written post. I am exhausted.
Humility. Does it make sense that sometimes someone being grateful for what you have done is humbling? I don’t know how to explain other than I feel I could do a better job and I feel like anyone would have done the same.
I am sorry I don’t have much today. My brain is tired.
Today’s humbling experience was realizing what it is to the be family member asking the church to come visit. Funny as I have often wondered why people hesitate so much to call the church or to ask for prayer. I have never had to be the one to ask though. Normally we have family around. When something is happening and I forget to put it on the prayer chain its not a huge deal because my family is large and we are our own prayer chain just because of our size. I don’t need to ask for visitation because my family support is around and we are good. But this time everyone was gone. It wasn’t serious enough to ask my brother or cousins to come out. My parents and aunt and uncle were in another country and so it was just me and grandpa. And I needed the support.
Its hard to ask for help. Especially when its just emotional help. I needed the support today and because it wasn’t a physical or terribly serious issue, more just me running out verve to keep being the strong one, it was very humbling to admit that I needed the help.
But I didn’t even have to ask. I did ask but I wouldn’t have needed to. My Pastor already planned on coming. My brother offered. My cousin offered. It helped so much knowing everyone was willing.
I am not exactly sure why I ran out of steam today. But I am glad I did. I understand a bit more about why some people struggle to ask for a visitation from someone from the church, or why others won’t call and put things on the prayer chain. It seems so silly not to when its not your own situation, but when it is your situation it seems too silly to worry about.
At least in God’s eyes its all important right?
PS My grandmother is doing well.
My dear readers, today was a long day of trying to get caught up at work and ending at being back at the hospital with my grandmother. She is doing well but they want to keep her another night and run more tests tomorrow because she seems to be reacting to the pain medications.
But in the midst of all of that I had a test today. I had a moment where I could have immediately reacted as usual and been overly opinionated. I would have ended up offending someone wrongly. Turns out I responded well, took a deep breath, waited a moment, and found out my first reaction would have been to the wrong information.
Perhaps posting about a moment of humility nullifies the humbleness? Funny thought. Regardless I am glad that I am seeing growth.
Sitting here today in an Operating Waiting Room while my grandma gets a new shoulder. I don’t have many thoughts today as my brain is distracted. But I have to say, I love watching my grandpa as he takes care of others in his slightly backward way. He is, in some ways, a very prideful man, but in many other ways he is so sweet and caring. He can be so self centered and not even have a clue how callous he is at times. But other times he is so others focused. Getting the nurse to help another lady who was locked out of the bathroom, or helping (more) elderly folk who can no longer do the work around their own homes.
I have seen some of his worst sides and some of his best sides. I pray that my worst sides are not quite as bad and that my best sides are just as good.
The crazy thing is that my grandpa is not a Christian. He doesn’t have any motivating factors to even have a good side, and yet, in many ways, he is better at this than me. Now if you look at his worse side you would not think that this would bring conviction. But I know that if it weren’t for Christ I know that I would reflect simply the worst. So how much more, since I do know Christ, should I be selfless and caring of others? I should look like my grandpa’s good side 24/7. I should have noticed that lady standing by the bathroom door and helped her first. I should be more willing to give of my free time to those who don’t have the same abilities or are simply just lonely.
So thats my lesson for the day, I should reflect Christ and His goodness even more so. I should be just as willing to serve. Seeing my grandpa’s good side reminds me that I have more of a motivation than he and should therefore be even better.
Now that is humbling.
I have a question for today’s post, a simple question that I think might be linked to pride and humility.
How do I stop being opinionated?
I have a feeling pride is involved here but don’t exactly know how. I am tired of getting so worked up over minor things. How do I stop caring so much about dumb issues?