Category Archives: Loose Leaves
I have kind of stalled out on writing for this blog. I was excited about the challenges every week and had a format and an outline for the entire year. But I can’t seem to get the blog to pour out of me like it used to. To top that off I have had an idea that I haven’t focused on because I feel I should start with this blog. So I am going to let myself off the hook. I am going to stop trying to write. I really want to be serious about my writing but I need to choose when I am writing where my priorities lie.
So I am sad to say because I love doing this, but I am stopping this blog for a while.
“I have come as an ambassador” I announced walking into the room. That is definitely the first time I have ever spoken that sentence before! It was an issue that had arisen just before my boss went into an appointment. He was aware of it but he was not able to go immediately himself. So I went in his stead until he was able to go himself. I was an ambassador.
The interesting part was what happened to me after the fact. My boss was then in the meeting and I was not. I was anxious and worried. Why? These were my thoughts, “did I represent him well? Was what I said clear and would he have said it himself?”
That is when it hit me, I am never this nervous about how I represent Christ. And yet that I do every day all day. Not once can I think of coming home and wondering if God is pleased with how I represented Him. I sometimes worry about how I am affected by days events, sometimes I realize I have done wrong but the repentance is based more in how it affects me. Not in how I represented Christ as His ambassador. It really struck me, I should be more concerned about this. More aware at all times that I am speaking for Him.
Now then, we are ambassadors for Christ, as though God were pleading through us: we implore you on Christ’s behalf, be reconciled to God. For He made Him who knew no sin to be sin for us, that we might become the righteousness of God in Him. 2 Corinthians 5:20-21
His name was Wait-And-See. I first got him as a 10 cent feeder fish. He was so cute just swimming around in the tank. A few months later I moved from California to Nevada and he came with me. He survived four hours in the car one day, a night in a motel and another four hours the next day.
He grew and thrived until one day I realized the poor guy was so big he could barely turn around in the triangular one gallon tank. He would swim in circles in one direction all day. What a boring life!
So I got a ten gallon tank.
He grew and thrived more and more! He survived so many other fish. He ate the ghost shrimp that were supposed to be bottom feeders that cleaned the tank.
He got me thinking though, what kind of existence is that? To live in four square walls and swim in circles. They say that goldfish have only a 3 second memory. I hope that is true for their sake. How do they know? Who learned to speak goldfish? Are goldfish found in the wild? If so are they territorial? Because if so how do they remember their territory?
This train of questioning could go on forever, and though I enjoy it I will leave you with just those few. If you know, leave me a comment and explain. Especially how they know Goldfish have a 3 second memory. That would be interesting to know. Or boring. I’m not sure. If its a scientific explanation then just give me a summary.
It has been a while since I have posted. I will get back to my normal postings soon. I just got back in country Friday and have been sick. More to come!!!
It is a little difficult updating how I am doing in this particular case as it has only been a short time since I wrote these posts, but it has been a blessing to remind myself of these habits that I pray I have created.
So review, keep coming back and remembering, and habitually be thankful!